YWednesday, December 12, 2007
Hellos again!!!
yay tml have combined camp with peirce secondary school band le
hope it will be fun and much to learn.
Today we played loch lomond and fire dance...
when we had combine with ms Tan ,and it was Loch Lomond...
i was quite enjoying the piece...
until ms loh took over for Fire Dance...
what happen was that i was actually playing 1st trumpet part and i was already
comfortable with it le...but don't noe why hui min sent an email of the parts we are playing.
And noe what...my part for fire dance was 2nd trumpet in the email...*sobs.
me 2nd wenting tot it was hui min whom have typed the email tat contains some mistakes.
so i was confused...then i wanted to play 1st part but suddenly ppl asked me to change with elisa,whom were too sight reading...
I was completely down and i was hopeless then...dunno what to do...sobs
when i had to play the 2nd part i did not want to play neither do i can see the score
cos ppl lyk dun care and they just could not understand ppl's feelings
so i did not play the 2nd's score...but then shivam asked us to change back
our parts for Fire Dance...After i've change back, though i played, but i still dun feel happy.
that kind of feeling for that ppl just throw me around and i do not have rights to decide on anything.Tears began to roll around inside my eyes and finally came out...i cried silently,hoping no one knows.wiping tears...and all had made wenting and elisa noe tat
i wasn't rite and was feeling down.
more tears came out while i was playing the score, and it wasn't just because the music is touching, its also because it makes me remember the times i had with my seniors...
then more tears came out uncontrollably...I could not control myself
I tried to tell myself tat i have to be strong...but tears still flow out...
Until for awhile wen ting cheered me up abit and the time had let it pass for that while...
well,i don't noe.then i was better le.
But what if i was really changed to another part.Haiz...Arghhh!!!...CHOI!then i don't know what will kind of happen so i hope that i could play 1st for Fire Dance... and other's other parts will still remain the same.
so everyone will remain happy...
ok tata...bubyes(:
till next time bah
maybe after camp bah
good luck jia you!(:
{ love had made me blind- }
